It didn’t rain, but those drops that had fallen, showed up in silence.

 

Tuesday January 27th 2009: In one sense I felt exhausted, in another sense intrigued. When starting this day out walking, I didn’t know or was aware of nothing. But when back in town again in my apartment, and in silence having dinner on my own, pleased looking out into the darkness of the night, I begin to understand why I do things the way I do. Bathrooms scales I’m not going to talk about, this kind of technical non-emotional trash doesn’t weigh in here, not today. Things feel different today and I don’t mean the weather. The weather is more than fine, but that’s not it. I haven’t lost focus or anything like that. I feel strong; sunglasses on when disembarking the bus, stretching up to full length. Okay, yes I’m tall and people see me, but that doesn’t bother me and it doesn’t bother them either. I still though don’t dress in style, not yet anyway when out walking. Same silly outfit as when I started these cliff walk excursions. I feel happy though. I feel that there is something else in the air this day, like I can smell it.

 

I pass the parking lot rather quick and enter the stairs down to the path almost like in a hurry. I’m in no rush whatsoever, so why hurry? I don’t know, not yet anyway. I’m intrigued and search the path for an explanation. There is none and I start to relax. I pass Deep Sea, but there is no sound. It’s quiet today and I haven’t heard that before. There is no real wind to talk about. The seagulls are there screaming as usually, but that’s not it, there is no other sound, nature feels like resting. I listen and instead of searching the obvious, I start to listen and look for what is not there, the silence, and suddenly everything else becomes noise. I cut out all noise, I still hear it in my head, but I let my body rule. I continue walking the path up and down and suddenly, there it is.  I hear it, silence.

 

In our society today, when do we hear silence? Has mankind ever heard silence? If mankind has, that has to be too many years ago and I would guess when mankind was born. No, silence today is rare and still we are not yet ready to appreciate it. I  in fact have heard silence before, so I knew what I was looking for. I wasn’t sure, but I was very much intrigued to find it here, like hidden well it approached me in silence.

 

It was crystal clear, so I couldn’t see it. It was sweet and I sensed the smell that was not really there. It was water in its purest shape coming trembling down from the cliffs above. Not much, but it was there, and the sky murmuring sound it created on its way to the sea, was silence to me.

 

After having met Deep Sea the day before, this experience was quite different. Suddenly I didn’t know if it was the other way around? Did this tiny stream feed Deep Sea or was it the reverse? The impact Deep Sea had made on me the day before was immense. But now, this tiny invisible water making its way over rocks and rubble down to the sea and there embraced, made me wonder.

 

These walks, that originally were intended for me to exercise and lose weight have turned out quite different. I haven’t really lost any weight at all, but I have gained something else. I was open and receptive, innocent if you like, but I listened. Nature is there, you may not see it, but you can sense its sweet taste and I stayed there for quite a while tasting. You don’t drink that water, it’s not for us to drink and it’s not there for us getting wet either. It’s there for us to be reborn from the sea, the mother to it all, and perhaps it was because of that Deep Sea was calling. I will probably never know, but I’m happy being allowed to enter this world of imagination, that might not be imagination after all.