An opening makes you see farther extending your thoughts.
Friday March 6th 2009: Yet a week has passed and I’ve been thinking. Okay, I actually do that at times and it’s a process of confusion. I don’t mean those worldly things like war, peace, pollution and that stuff, which is already pretty much clear and displayed in media what to think. No this is more basic stuff, such as “What time is it?”, “God I’m tired!”, “Do I need to get up?”, “I don’t want to!”, “Didn’t I get up yesterday, or?” No I mean these kinds of more close to you existential thoughts.
Well I did get up and experienced that I still was existing having bills to pay and people talking to me.
“Hello!!! I’m talking to yooou, [a lot of waving, waving, in front of my face] I’m heeere!”
I stretched up smiling and tried to focus.
“Oh there you are Marianne; Sorry I didn’t see you behind that sandwich you are holding up in front of your face.”
We were having breakfast and it was Sunday, I think? “No it wasn’t. Yes it was. Oh God I was tired.”
Anyway later that day Marianne and I went out for a walk and along the way we thought of popping in to an art exhibition. I think that inspiration came from my previous blog “Darkness; the Light Within”, but nothing we saw reached up to that level of art, far from it. I wonder what makes things art? Is it the surroundings or the objects themselves? Like if it’s the surroundings, the same object will be labeled different being hung up on a white wall in a fancy museum than if piled up in a junk yard. And again if it’s the objects that matters, that fancy museum could be a junk yard? Or… tough thoughts to drag along as Marianne and I left the exhibition.
But as I’m a positive person having Marianne paying my bills and all that, so why not hang up my malfunctioning blue screen laptop on the wall. After all there was a lot of that kind of art too at the exhibition. Hmm… “IT”, Illegitimate Trash, Ill-fated Trust, Instant Tragedy. Anyway, “Intelligent”, no way. And on a second thought is that good or bad? Its days like this when things start to get complicated and out of nothing I have created myself my own tug of war, I really should have stayed in bed.
So that’s what I’ve been doing up till now “Thinking” and as a result of that I will try to open up this blog a bit and add some subjects to it. As you probably have understood by now, I have a wandering mind and it’s not always easy to find words describing where I have been or am heading. My life has changed rather dramatically these last seven years and I could have chosen to stay in bed hiding when it all started, but there was something in me that wanted to get up, out and grab hold on life and make it worth something.
In our society today, we have something called “Life Quality” and “Lifestyle & Health” and I just wonder, do those expressions mean the same or are they essentially different? I have thought a lot about this and many other similar things where our mind awareness doesn’t quite seem to match up with reality. This has been on my table for a long time now and I have some manuscripts in my drawer since five years back assembling these my thoughts then. Nothing much has changed, but a lot have been added and I feel like ready to launch it in a series I would like to call “Across Borders” and I would like to have the ingressions displayed here on this blog.
